I feel this is an important topic that affects everyone. I hope this encourages anyone grieving, and helps those around them understand a little more of what they might be going through. This is something I wrote in the confusion and pain of my own experience of bereavement.
The death of a loved one is an interesting thing. It isolates you from them and the rest of the world, yet at the same time they have never been so close. You can talk to them at any time but you never hear back from them. They are always there but never there at the same time. Death is the end and the beginning of two completely different lives, that are somehow interlinked by the lingering memories. What happens to the promises that were made in this life? Are your promises still valid?
You enter this strange blank void whilst still living the life the world demands of you. You’re here but not. It’s almost like floating in mid-air, except it’s not even air, it’s just nothingness.
All the things people say to comfort you, which you are grateful for, you know already. It still doesn’t make sense though, or resolve the blank ache that casts a shadow over you. You laugh and smile but there’s still something missing that rids your laugh from being as it was before.
God has brought me through and healed me from this painful experience. I have learnt to trust Him and lean in on Him even when I don’t understand. As always, He has made me stronger and my relationship with Him deeper. This Bible verse really blessed me and gave me strength:
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.